My New Adventure!

I have been really bad about blogging! I know there are a so many of you out there that are really interested in the blog (ha ha ha). Anyway sarcasm aside, I am headed off for a new adventure this week. On Saturday the 25th of June I am headed to Alaska to live for the next couple of months. What am I doing there you may ask, well I am going to work in a fish cannery. Yes some of you who know me may think that I am joking, but I am not! I am actually going to do this and I am so very excited.





I have felt for months that I am not where I am supposed to be in my life. I feel like I am stagnant. I am ready for a change! This job opportunity just fell in my lap, and well as much as I thought there was no way I could move to Alaska, I know that it will be wonderful for me. I am going to try and keep my blog updated from up there and let you all know what I am doing!

So I hope that you are all ready for an adventure!

What am I looking For?

For some reason I feel a lot like Cindy Lou Who when she says "Where are you Christmas? Why can't I find you?" This year I have had the hardest time getting into Christmas. It really isn't just Christmas I am having a hard time with, I can't seem to get into anything. I don't want to go to Church, I don't want to spend time with my family, I can't decide what I want to do with my life and I never really want to even leave my house.

I seem to be lost. Not that I know how to find what it is I seem to be looking for. I am not even sure that I am looking for anything. I know this post sounds crazy but I figure that very few people if anyone will even read it. I am just using it as my sounding board. Input is welcome.

What Next?

I have now moved back into my parents home which in a way makes me feel really lame because I have finished school and have no where else to go much less any money to go anywhere else.

Anyway reality hit yesterday at around this time when I went to check my bank accounts. I do not want to get into the whole story but I will say that there was crying on my part(not surprising) laughing on my fathers part (also not surprising) and some good old fashioned advice on my mothers part (definitely not surprising). I am now seeking immediate employment.

I wanted to have some time off but as we all know, well at least the two of you that actually read my blog know, God has different plans. Believe me we have had a little chat about this situation, and he has yet to answer me. I am trying to be positive about this but I am finding very little about the situation to be positive about. I would really like to crawl in a Hole and not come out for a year or two. Option two of course is my old stand by of finding a one foot in the grave outrageously rich man to marry but those prospects are looking even thinner than me finding a poor young man to marry. I promise both prospects are only in the .000000001 of happening.

Well I have poured my frustrations into this blog as usual and have found that I only feel bad for having actually written them out. Oh Well.

Why Not?

I am sitting here enjoying my relaxation time. It is not often that I get such time lately. My student teaching is winding down, and so is my energy. I have loved student teaching more than I thought I would, but it has been such a great deal of work that I did not anticipate. I am excited to move home and spend the Holidays with my family. My little sister is just thrilled to have me come home! She is looking up all sorts of projects for us to do. It will also be nice to have a break. I do not know what I will do when I get home, but I guess that will all come together later.

Update

Well, I must have missed September becuase I am sure that it cannot almost be the end of October!! Time has just flown. I have been insanely busy! I haven't really even stopped to breath. I leave for school by 6:00 most mornings and don't get home until after 7:00 most nights. I have absolutely no life (so all my plans of coming to the big city and actually finding someone to date have not worked out. Not that I expected them to...) I haven't done anything with anyone other than my family in over a month. Almost 2 months! That is all my own fault and I know it but when I don't get home until later, I have no energy or patience for doing anything or being around anyone.

I have to say that I love teaching a lot more than I expected to, but that I am still not sure if I am going to end up as a teacher. I have too many thoughts to put into words on the subject.

Just a small rant about the city... IT SMELLS!!!!! I hate all of the nasty, horrible, disgusting smells that you are all of the sudden accosted with while driving down the street. I have gagged several times! IT IS TOO LOUD!!!! Right at this moment I can hear sirens, I hate all the noise!! I need more quiet! LASTLY... My bedroom walls are not insulated enough. I love my roommates but I hate hearing every conversation they have at1:00 in the morning when I am trying to sleep. It is really starting to annoy.

Other than having a headache and feeling completely exhausted, I have nothing new to report.

P.S. Even though this post sounds just a bit annoyed and angry, I am doing quite well!!!

WOW! I love my school

I am student teaching at the most amazing school ever!!! It has such great CRT (certified reference test) scores and the faculty is amazing. I just love it there!!

I am feeling better about living in Taylorsville as well, I mean I don't want to live here forever but I like it. I just prefer somewhere with more space and less people. I think I am more of a country girl than I thought I was.

Not much else to report. I am working on getting lesson plans ready making sure that I am getting to know my students names. Also trying to sort out my financial aid that has been a mess but what is new when it comes to money.

Ok Maybe I'm Not Ready For This

On Friday I moved to Taylorsville Utah. I thought that this was going to be really exciting and it was until I realized that at some point my mom and sister were going to leave and I was going to be on my own. Normally this wouldn't bother me but this time it was different. I didn't want to be left to do my own thing. I just wanted them to stay forever. It didn't help that my mother and brother took me to dinner and kept telling all the dangerous things to watch out for and all the things that I needed to be careful of. I was really scared the first night, and my mom was still here. I just wanted to go home. What was I really doing here anyway? The next day and night were better, but this morning when my mom and sister finally did leave ( I was able to convince them to stay an extra night) I cried and cried. I felt so alone even though I am rooming with 3 other girls, I just couldn't stand watching my mom leave. I went to church and it was great it really helped me feel better. I know that this is going to be a crazy few months I just hope I can get through it. Pray for me.