WOW! I love my school

I am student teaching at the most amazing school ever!!! It has such great CRT (certified reference test) scores and the faculty is amazing. I just love it there!!

I am feeling better about living in Taylorsville as well, I mean I don't want to live here forever but I like it. I just prefer somewhere with more space and less people. I think I am more of a country girl than I thought I was.

Not much else to report. I am working on getting lesson plans ready making sure that I am getting to know my students names. Also trying to sort out my financial aid that has been a mess but what is new when it comes to money.

Ok Maybe I'm Not Ready For This

On Friday I moved to Taylorsville Utah. I thought that this was going to be really exciting and it was until I realized that at some point my mom and sister were going to leave and I was going to be on my own. Normally this wouldn't bother me but this time it was different. I didn't want to be left to do my own thing. I just wanted them to stay forever. It didn't help that my mother and brother took me to dinner and kept telling all the dangerous things to watch out for and all the things that I needed to be careful of. I was really scared the first night, and my mom was still here. I just wanted to go home. What was I really doing here anyway? The next day and night were better, but this morning when my mom and sister finally did leave ( I was able to convince them to stay an extra night) I cried and cried. I felt so alone even though I am rooming with 3 other girls, I just couldn't stand watching my mom leave. I went to church and it was great it really helped me feel better. I know that this is going to be a crazy few months I just hope I can get through it. Pray for me.

I Just Hope That It Doesn't Come In 3's

Well this week has already been a tough one. Around 11:00 pm Sunday night my brother Mike called to tell my parents that my brother Brian had been in an accident and had broken his jaw. He was pushed while at a pool and he hit the side of the pool and then fell into the water. So my Dad, sister in-law Kristy, and my brother Patrick went out to Salt Lake to take care of Brian.

Brian and Kristy's kids came to stay with us. I had Stephanie and Sara monday and tuesday and Wyatt tuesday. The girls have cheer camp this week and so I needed to take them to that, which I am totally fine with. But can I just say I was never a fan of cheer leaders. I am not a fan of sitting and watching them teach my nieces cheers that I think are really stupid either, but that is what I am doing.

I do loving having my nieces and nephew around but I don't think that I am ready to be a mom. At least not an instant one, becuase it is really hard to jump into the shoes of someone and try to take on their role when you have your own ideas and standards.

Brian is home now and he will be ok but they had to put 3 metal plates in his jaw and his jaw is wired shut for 6 weeks. A total liquid diet is required. I feel bad for him. When we took the kids home today he looked like he was in a lot of pain, I hope that he heals fast.

On top of all this my brother Mike seems to be having a crisis of Faith. He thinks that God is punishing him. I think that he doesn't understand God. I pray for him and I hope that he can pull it together for his children because he is a single parent, but I don't know that he really wants to pull it together. What can say my family is really just one crisis after another. I guess that is life.

The old saying that bad things happen in 3's I am just hoping that it isn't true.

Dreams.... A premonition or just my crazy brain

So this morning I am awoken by a hissing sound. First I think that I should mention that I have an irrational fear of snakes. I mean who wouldn't the things can move and they don't have any legs! It gives me the creeps. Anyway I find myself awake sitting on my bed listening for this hissing sound. I think that I should also mention that I am currently living in my parent's basement, at least for the next week. I have never seen a snake in the basement but that doesn't mean that my overactive imagination can't conjure some up. SO anyway I am sitting on my bed, outside of the covers of course because I am worried that I might have a snake in my bed and I shake my bed to see if it could have been making the hissing sound, but it doesn't. I continue to shake my bed because I think that if the snake is on the floor I will at least get to hear it before I jump off the bed and go screaming from the room, I really hate snakes! But there is still no hissing sound. So I chalk it up to very active imagination and lay back down. I do not however cover my self with the sheets just to be safe. So my question is, was it a dream? And if it was a dream was it just my crazy tired brain or was it something more?

The Next Phase

Wow, I can't beleive that I graduated from college!!! Ok so I still have to do my student teaching, but all of my course work is done. I just can't believe it! When I first started college I don't think that I thought that I would actually graduate. Now I have and I don't really know what to do next. Life seems to be completely unplanned, I have so many options for after student teaching that it is overwhelming. I could: get a teaching job, get a different job, move home and get a job, find someone I might want to marry(this is a big if), go back to college.... The possibilities are endless, or so it seems. Life is going to be an adventure... well that is what I keeping telling myself.







Me with my parents after I graduated!!









My methods class, well most of us, and Sister Lammons. These are the girls that have taught me so much and who I know will continue to teach me. I am glad we are all in this together. It has been a great ride.